Kind of Hating It.

Sooooooooo.
I'm kind of hating it here at EMU.
I don't know why I thought things would just come easy to me.
Social things....like making friends and having fun.
It's about to be my birthday, and I have no girlfriends to go out and kick it with.
All I have are guy friends, who I met off the internet.
I have no idea what to do.
I feel indequate.
Like if I introduce myself to people they will just laugh at me. So I'm kind of stuk waiting on people to talk to me....
NOT working out so much.
Cameron is great.
BUT that's beside the point.
When does it start to get fun???
WHENNNNNN?
I'm tired of feeling like a loner.
The job isn't helping very much either.
I'm scared, deathly shy....
I just had an entirely different vision of how my social life would be so great.
I know that this is the type of thing that is dendent only on ME.
I have to change it.
I have to make it better.
But how?
These are the types of things that should come with instruction manuals.
Sorority?
no...?
events....?
no...?
Should I just go to parties alone and hope that sum friendly group of females adopts me as one of their friends cuz I look lonely?
no.
How do people really make friends?
By chance?
Do they actually put a conscious effort into the whole friend making thing???
I highly doubt it....BUT you never know.